Blog Entry #1: Nooks and Crannies

     What's up reader, my name is Aidan Polonsky, the author of this blog you have stumbled upon and more than likely chosen to read as one of your four comments for this grading block. If you are not here for that reason, then please have a seat and enjoy regardless. There's complimentary cucumber water to your right.

    For as long as I can remember there has been this feeling in the back of my mind that something is off here. "Why am I in this hallway surrounded by off green worn out lockers and a bunch of kids I barely know, on my way to a class I care nothing about and does not seem to have anything to do with being who I am". Typical existential thoughts of an introspective 15-year-old as far as I knew at the time. 

      This realization created a spark that ignited into who I have become today and encouraged me to do everything I love to do in my free time to date. You may be wondering "What exactly does that mean you like to do in your free time Aidan?". It means in any of the free time that I have, I love to find out more of who I am physically, mentally, and spiritually. Discover all those little nooks and crannies to see what makes me, me. Never know when you’ll stumble upon a random door that opens you up to a thought that completely changes your life for the better, because it’s always for the better, even if in that moment it may not feel that way. (Figure 1 of Sisyphus)

    I personally loath to run at all times but have found that there is no better place to start when you want to get more in touch with yourself. Pushing myself physically has been the catalyst to every major decision I have made in my life from choosing to become an Army Ranger back in 2018 because it sounded hard and figured I'd learn a lot about myself to taking 10 grams of psilocybin and going for a ceremonial run in the woods to dance with the outer limits of my comfort zone. 

    To most, the way I spend my days may look like absurdity mixed with some kind of mental illness but ever since I decided to start making my life as physically hard as possible, the simpler everything else started to become. What may have been a massive distraction on my focus is now just this distant sound that I may or may not have even noticed. (Figure 2 of psilocybin)

          There’s a saying nonrunners like to say to runners that goes something like this “what are ya running from?” or “man, that guys always runnin. Must be runnin from something”. That’s all just noise as far as I am concerned. I think of it as “I am chasing after who I am always striving to be”, a better human being.



Comments

  1. Zoie JFebruary 8, 2024 at 8:33 AM

    I absolutely love the start of this blog! Made me laugh a bit. I really enjoyed reading about your journey so far with finding yourself and understanding what makes you, basically, you.

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  2. Izzie W.February 13, 2024 at 11:33 AM

    This was an interesting read. The way you write really gives insight to how you brain works. I loved to see that you took the act of running and transformed it into something to better yourself.

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  3. Ashaer JFebruary 18, 2024 at 3:42 PM

    I think this post is interesting, you should give more insight on your experience taking 10 grams of Psilocybin. That would be a good topic for your next blog post. Also, I too enjoy doing things that are difficult. They give you a great sense of fulfillment.

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